I really don't know what to do any more in my life.

I don't enjoy doing my art work any more. I don't enjoy surfing the internet, watching videos on youtube. I really not enjoying working as a boots worker. At the shop I'm at, i'm just being used as Cannon fodder for the pharmacist and the customers.

Even reading one of my faverite things in my life i've stopped. The last fanfiction i was reading was a Magnus and Alec and i've stopped on the second chapter and even city of glass I had started re-reading it and I havn't touched the book in the pass four days.

I feel now, I can't even talk with my friends anymore. it not like I don't love your guys I do. But why should i be aloud to talk to you all. you've got lives of your own and continuing on with. you have a brilliant job that you enjoy, learning to driver again and a relationship. your surviving A level and getting high grades at the same time and you're going into a wonderful collage and found a better guy that will at least treat you and the other girl with a hell of alot more repect then that fucking ex.

I'm really fat unhealthy slob. I fail everyone I know and everything i do. I can't believe that i got a letter from collage asking if i want to continue next year. Someone need the place more then me at least they would be smarter and be able to do well. I'll probally drown in the first week.

I might as well disappear forever. I wouldn't be missed... can't be ass to continue and people don't want to waste there time reading this crap. I'm going to go back to sleep now. If i can.